Saying goodbye is NOT my favorite thing to do....
As a child it meant sad airport kisses as we left daddy at the terminal gate, goodbyes to grandparents each summer vacation, and farewell to friends when we moved - again!!
I grew a bit and goodbyes still were NOT my favorite thing to do....
I sent a young man far away for two years and bid adieu to High School friends who I knew I would never see again. I said goodbye to double flips on the sidelines, size 6 jeans, stick straight hair, mini skirts, carefree days. I said goodbye to childhood.
I said goodbye to single life (okay, that was one goodbye that was not so hard!! As a matter of fact, I really scored in that department - thank you, honey!) But saying goodbye to snuggles and cuddles and baby breath was harder than I imagined. Loose teeth, feety pajamas, Saturday morning cartoons are a thing of the past now. When did I wave goodbye to them?
Today I said my goodbyes to a good friend. I stood by her bed tonight, midst tubes and machines, and told her I was there with her. Her goodbye comes too soon for us. We were not ready. I left her side, but not before tucking her grown daughter in beside her so she could sleep with mom one last night. Saying goodbye is NOT my favorite thing to do...
I am going to have to flip this coin and see the other part of goodbye. I am going to have to see the hello!! For every goodbye at the airport there was always a hello hug at the other end. I just forgot to remember it. It will take some practice this time, but I need to remember that there is a hello hug somewhere....
3 comments:
As someone in the midst of feety pajamas and Saturday morning cartoons, it hurts my heart to think of being without them. As Noah grows bigger and wants less and less to rock with his mommy I can already see these pieces of raising kids silently slipping away and I want to stand up and yell..."IM NOT READY!" I don't know that I will ever be ready. I suppose that is why we get grandkids!
What a great post. Sad. But great.
We've had too many goodbyes in my family lately but I love the idea of thinking of the "hellos" on the other side. Thank you for a lovely and touching post .. and I'm sorry for your loss of your friend and having to say "goodbye" too soon. Just remember a "hello again" is in the future.
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